YEAH IM FUCKING GRUMPY, THE BITCHIEST AND THE BIGGEST ASSHOLE YOU'VE EVER MET, AND YOU'RE A DAMN ANGEL THAT EVERYONE SHOULD LOVE. Damn it, if you don't like me at least stop trying to act like you do. By the way, you're not the only one trying to tolerate.

Did someone kidnap Karma? Because all the good deeds I've done were repaid with bullshit. Shit that actually lasts long, if it was short at least I can still be happy it's over, but this has been going on for months now, and it will continue for an even longer time. Oh wait, Karma has been found! And only the bad things I've ever done are remembered.

I am so sick of school.

I feel like crying/complaining/pouring out my sorrows to Joel Faviere but he probably wouldn't give a shit about someone he doesn't know and it would be awkward anyway.

The end of the world should just come now, I'd celebrate. I've wasted my whole darn life in school and after school I'll be wasting my life working my ass off trying to earn money and survive.

I'm gonna rant like mad again, that's like the only thing I ever do in this blog. Told myself I wouldn't rant again because it's unsightly and unlady-like, but of course I never change. How to women in the 60s control their temper and smile even when they're pissed off, whenever I'm mad pissed all the vulgarities come out.

Okay, on to rant something not so personally related.

ARRRRRRRGGGGGHHH ACCHAN IS GRADUATING FROM AKB48. Even though my oshi is Mariko, I STILL FRIGGIN LOVE ACCHAN SHE WAS THE FIRST ONE I KNEW. QUEEN OF BASIC, WHY DO YOU LEAVE. I really don't know what AKB48 would be like without her, she is the FACE of AKB48. Not to mention was a 1st gen, ORIGINAL member. WHY ACCHAN DON'T LEAVE.

On the bright side, at least she has gotten her solo already and she can act so maybe during June, I'll watch Q10 to cheer myself up.

URRRRRGGHH akaya from 9GBO is LEAVING. THIS YEAR SUCKS LIKE MAD. Even though he's a support member, he's still a member. HE'S SUPER GOOD AT DOING HIS JOB AND IT'S SUCH A WASTE. Arrrghhhakjasdjnkdjnkdsvidkjndsajknsd get well soon :'( Idk, his message was so true and honest, even though there's nothing much to be honest about. Like I wasn't actually too satisfied with the excuse Yuuto gave when he left ScReW, I honestly still have no idea up till now.

Yesterday was preeeeetty fun. I failed LA compre but WHATeverrrrrrrrrrrr, I already expected it. I didn't complete my LA content quiz too. Oh and I know I'm wrong for everything in the bio test. But, dramatic reading was done well, I am relieved! Mrs Lau gave me rather good comments I thought she was displeased with me when I was reading because she was staring at me like

BAHAHHAHA

So, band was pretty fun, we didn't really do much. Eunice has some app that distorts us and she made my nose super ugly ahahhahahaha, I want to distort faces too but I'm too lazy. Ms Wong was unusually nice to the clarinets today, she kept praising us. I guess it's because she can't even hear me.

IM BOB DYLAN! So excited, Bob Dylan is funny.

I had weird dreams. I dreamed of Funtasia but it was nothing like Funtasia would be. I dreamed that it was some water park, but I think it is probably more fun than the real Funtasia. Anyway I suddenly can't remember much but a lot happened and it was fun!

Ah I'm so screwed, my GPA is screwed.

Let's hope next week will be a good week.

This is pathetic, I hate school so much. I honestly don't give a shit if we're spammed with homework during June, I just want a holiday NOW. I can't wait for boarding already, it'll be so... exciting. It's kind of the make it or break it period.

Oh yeah, on 19/03/2012, also known as John's birthday, I reached the max level for MEGU. Haha I never thought that day would come, ahahahha crazy Yusa made me hooked on the game. He's so slow... When I first started he was level 90+ now he's level 184 and I already hit the max. Yusa visits me! Sometimes. Occasionally. Rarely. Not anymore.

Guhhhhhhhhhh, I am probably the most useless human in the entire world, 0 productivity.

I sort of like The Candy Spooky Theater actually. I like A Clockwork World, but mostly before the singer starts singing. I like the kind of minor-ish sound, it's soothing? That's probably not the right word to describe it. I feel like I'm being hypnotised ahhh!!!!

Help... The slow and sad clarinet + flute part of Persis is stuck in my head. It's really quite annoying after awhile.

DAMNNNN I suddenly miss KL trip, a little, some parts. I miss waking up in the morning to Justin Bieber's baby and feeling like strangling Meng Yuan for setting it as the alarm. I miss walking into Pet, Jo and Van's room at night to see them doing something weird or dumb and bullying Vanessa. I miss sleeping in the bus, I miss sharing food with and taking food from others. I miss doing dumb shit with everyone and waving at Vicky and Aggie who were on a separate bus like I haven't seen them in 300 years. I miss scaring the shit out of myself from hearing Sarah's stories. Okay scratch that I don't miss that part I wish I never heard it at all. I think I miss KL trip because we all were stress-free at that time.

I think some of us are getting very distant. Some of them don't wave anymore, fml some of them don't even smile or look at me. HELLO was our 2 years of friendship really that easy to forget, that within 3 months I'm a stranger?

Lol shut up guys, I know what you're thinking. Y SO EMO AND BITCHY. Shut up just so happens I'm not one that eats my feelings, I rant like mad.

WAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH I'm so sad and everything right now, I feel like writing a sentimental letter to everyone, but I probably shouldn't because I'll give up halfway. When I'm in the mood.

AND I'M IN DEEP SHIT IN TERMS OF HOMEWORK. Seriously. Ah whatever, I wish I lived in times where there was no school, I'd rather milk the cow or something. I HATE STRESS URGH, I can't handle stress well. Nothing goes well when I am stressed and I think I let myself get stressed too much. In the end, I end up with a big F U to everyone or crying lol wtf what an idiot.

Tadah, Queen of procrastination and short attention span here. I was supposed to read about the French revolution a few days ago, but of course I haven't. And I want to sleep now. Good night.

Oh by the way, Wicked was really good.

I would like to say...

Happy 10th Birthday the GazettE!!

You're a decade old :D Well if I ignore the fact I learnt about them in October, Kai's birthday, then it would be the fifth year this year? I CAN'T EVEN. Ahhhhhhhhhhhhh. Well, Reita said he would like the band to continue for at least 50 years, it gives me hope. I love these people so much, I think I grew up after listening to the GazettE. Because they show different aspects of the world, and I think no matter what I'm feeling, I can listen to a song by them because it always makes me happy. That's what really makes them special because I don't think there is any other band that can do that for me. Hahahahahaha I have so much to say that I don't know what to say. No, I don't think that the GazettE is just a bunch of divas that only care about themselves and money, because just Taion and Without a Trace says enough. I don't think the GazettE is overrated, because they can and did inspire many, they make the kind of music they want. I don't think the GazettE members are useless bums, they worked their asses off in their early days and even after success they don't stop dreaming higher. I love how the GazettE is so brutally honest with each other, and how real they are.

Come on guys, just do a world tour already.

Aww this is so cute. http://jrocklove.tumblr.com/post/18902881363/ruki-kai-duet-ruki-sings-the-first-stanza-of

UGGGHHHH I want the Be@r Brick so badly. Ruki is so talented. 1,500 yen, about $23? I'm willing to pay but I need a credit card, and wtf please tell me it's not only sold at Makuhari Messe.

Shit I can't handle all the tumblr posts about THE DECADE. http://www.tumblr.com/tagged/the-decade

Found out via Twitter that... Alice Nine is selling GEMINI and 9 in Singapore on the 16th! SHITTTTT what should I do, should I buy GEMINI or 9? I don't have enough money for both, since each is a bloodsucking approx $55 for me. Actually, I don't even have enough money for one right now, but if I just bring bread and eat porridge for lunch everyday it should be alright.

Ah, yesterday was Track Meet. The Track Meet itself was dumb, Terra and Aqua had to sit across the grandstand, and it was damn wet and there wasn't enough space to sit.

After that, we went out! It was supposed to be a class outing. Then it ended up being only 10 people: Me, Jolene, Meng Yuan, Vanessa, Ariel, Hyun Hee, Victoria, Ann-marie, Daniel and John. Then Daniel, John and Ann-marie decided to pangseh us. Hyun Hee couldn't go suddenly idk why. Victoria was called back for SPIRE. So it became 5 in the end. But we still had lots of fun. We ate KFC at Far East Plaza, I had the value box thing. Then we went to walk around at Far East, saw this super cool ring, it's like watch around your finger, and it works! It really can tell the time. I was so fascinated and tempted to buy it. There were cool figurines in that shop, there be@rbricks too! There was this seed where if you plant it the words on the seed will show on the plant. So exciting! We walked into a phone accessory shop, they had really nice iPhone covers, Ariel wanted to buy one. Ariel wanted to buy this really sweet cat one, there was another map one that was really cool. But the coolest was the spiderman one! But nah I don't buy covers until mine spoils.

Then we went to ion and walked around B4. We went to artbox, obviously we didn't buy anything because everything is so darn expensive. We went to Daiso! Spent almost an hour there. We wanted to buy a box to put in all of memories with 202, but couldn't find a nice box of the right size.

Then we went to take neoprints! Hahaha I love them so much I love all my neoprints they're so precious. But I lost some of them in JH1 because they fell down the lift, the road, urgh.

I hope we can finally have a class outing.

Help me! EMPLOY ME! No.

I want to buy and read Aleph, I think it might inspire me. I think I need help.

And I like it, like it~ Lol LemonED I SCREAM is super addictive and the lyrics are so hide. It's kinda meaningful?

HALLELUJAH LES MISERABLES!

Band was pretty fun today, we played Take Center Stage, my favourite song! It was also the first song I could play -__- probably the only too. The best part of band is... break time. Duh. Because it's super fun talking to Eunice and Jolene about stupid things. Hahahah I like watching Jolene sleep during band lol I sound like Edward Cullen.

I think I'm gonna buy the AKB48 lanyard, if it's not already sold out, that is. Maybe if we stop by SCAPE on Friday?

AHHH who cares about boarding right?! :|

I think I'm gonna develop a heart problem soon!!! I always have this super painful feeling at my chest after PE, like my heart is contracting lol. And my hand has this weiird feeling that sometimes hurts with my heart. It feels like there's a hole... maybe I'll become Miroku! I've got a feeling in my hand, it's a lemon lemon lemonED ice cream!

So hate me, hate me.

I missed the first braodcast because I was at school doing GS. But the connection freaking sucked and on my phone the stream kept going offline. Then by the time I set up my computer THE KIDDIE's part was already over. Then I forgot about the rebroadcast because I was watching Arthur. HAHAH Arthur is a damn nice and funny show.

I'm f*cked for chem mock test, I don't even know what TDID and PDD is. Yes yes I know its temporary dipole induced dipole and permanent dipole dipole I JUST DON'T KNOW WHAT THEY ARE.

The others would be:

Karte!

By 9GBO. It was released on Valentines Day, and I'm like screw Valentines I want this. Because it's just so good. Ok maybe not wish because it's just another version of Negai and I prefer the original.

9!

By alice nine. Duh. I know it's awesome because I heard the songs on the 9 special on Nico Nico. I think the arc and hello world are my favourites. the arc has badass guitar solos and Saga talking in hello world is priceless.

Because I've been expecting something amazing from them. To be honest I wasn't too impressed with calling though. But B.N.W was good, I'm happy I bought it. This should be really nice, I can sort of feel it.

BIRAN!

ScReW! I guess it's mostly because I'm completely brainwashed by Rui's nonstop advertising. And also because I really think ScReW needs more love, I'm protective of them because people always criticise Byou and Rui. I don't think Byou's voice is bad, and I don't think Rui is an eyesore. I love Yuuto and Rui can never replace him, but who said Rui wanted to replace him anyway.

This post is utter bullshit to you guys, nobody even understands when I talk about Jrock.

So... I still hate school. What a complete waste of time. What is the bloody point of role plays? Is that the only damn way for us to 'learn'? Because I don't think I'm learning effectively by wasting loads of time researching, trying to be some guy that is probably already dead, trying to find out stuff about him that can't be found, then showing the class. I waste hours of my life, waste about 2 lessons of that subject on something that could have just be written in the notes. You could have just shown your typical ppt slides, at least it doesn't waste my time.

Okay, so this week isn't going well either. Surprise surprise.

For anyone that gives a shit, I think the PV and song is pure brilliance and I love how everything is placed together. I think this is one of the best by 9GBO, this kind of genius work makes me happy, kind of like GEMINI. ALL HAIL THE 12/3 MIN SONG(S) GEMINI. Back to the PV, DID I MENTION HOW AWESOME HATI IS?! I LOVE HATI he reminds me of... idk I can't remember. I like Ryo's hair here, it looks better curled. Actually, I think all their curled hair looks better than it was super straight in the previous PV. Lol the previous PV was crazy I didn't even know what was happening.

I need to do work I hate how blogger/twitter/facebook steals all my time.